today i feel so blah... which is odd because i have been so great for about three months now. i miss cutting, i wish i could cut - but its summer here and i do a lot of swimming so wherever i cut on my body - you would see it! (i suppose this is a good thing, it stops me)... its a bummer though!  i'm hardly eating - at least that is one good thing :)  anywho!!!! i have decided to get a tattoo :):):):):):):):) i'm excited :)  my plan is to get it next week sometime, my best friend amy wants to get one too, so we'll go together.  i have tomorrow and saturday to finish making a dress, i don't really have to finish it - but i would like to wear it new years eve, so i'm going try my best!  i want these shoes